29. 相愛很難

It's always comforting to listen to dad sing. 

A cantonese song that brings out the nature of love 

相愛真的很難...

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缘份 

I asked him if he believes in fate

"Fate, is for those who lost faith

They need another reason for love

They looked for fate"

.

.

.

The irony above all,

I believe in neither fate, nor love.

I believe in chances

Chances we make for ourselves

20. STFU

You know what's heart-breaking? When you put every inch of yourself out for that someone, that friend, that lover, anyone - and at the end of the day you realize you are nothing more to a human doormat. You put yourself down even though it never was your fault, you bite in every thoughts you have to repel, just to save the relationship. And one fine day when you decide to finally liberate your feelings into words, everything comes crumbling down because people are so used to you as an afterthought. You are nothing but a best supporting actress that buck the movie up. 

The punch line?

"I cried watching a comedy movie last night. I spent most of my time wondering what makes people happy to realize that the belief of humanity is sometimes a comical suicide. Because when you put yourself all out not to realize the depth of this relationship, you hit the ground slower, but with greater impact. What an irony."

15. Naked Light

Today it rained. I watched the rain drops as they race each other to the window sill. The heart in my chest felt foreign and beat in a separate rhythm than the rest of my body. It looked stunningly beautiful. The world through the rain is moving with the rain drops creeping down the window pane. I no longer fear disappointment nor pain, sadness became almost non existent. The world looked back at me. They see tears streaming down, but this time, from the window pane. I detach myself from the thoughts, feelings, tears, angst, misery. I am the abstract piece of art that they're looking at, the one they try to decipher, but they don't see me, they don't know me. The cold air sinks as my feet stiffened. The rain found its place on the ground to end its cycle. The restless thoughts dissipate. Its beautiful, a raining afternoon, Sunday the 15th. 

14. A&C

The problem with advertisers? 

They make consumers believe in their client's product.

The problem with consumers?

Most of them make believe with that.

But it's stupid isn't it?

We don't see acne on Vanessa's face 

for a need for her to use a Clear-Acne product to even begin with...

I was bored and doing advert surfing on youtube

pardon me